Ashley Lynn TS

Like it says in my blog's bio, I'm a versatile. I know some people might be aghast at the idea of a 24/7 submissive/sissy topping, but look, life's too short, and sometimes my Dominant and I each want to experience the other side for an hour.

I know I've mentioned that my Daddy discovered his bisexuality through having me as his partner and plaything. So it probably shouldn't be a surprise when I mention I'm the only man who's ever topped my partner. After all, he's not some ravenous cock-hungry bottom; he's just a man who wants to experience all the sensations of his body, and I'm the man he trusts most. At the end of the day, he's still the Dom, and he'll still bluntly tell me exactly what he wants, and how well I'm pleasing him.

I bring this all up because this unique combination of factors, over a long enough period of time, offered a unique lesson on dick size.

So back when I first topped my partner, some unexpected things happened. One, my dick slid in his totally untrained ass with no difficulty whatsoever. It's very unusual to easily handle a whole dick inside you your first time, unless you've practiced a ton. Two, his reactions were out of this world. At 3 1/2" inches long, I didn't expect to ever cause those kinds of reactions, even via anal.

Now over time, as he got used to being fucked, his reactions lessened. He still enjoyed it, but it wasn't quite the same. In addition, I've had problems just not falling out of him. Positions other than missionary are basically impossible, and even then, my range of movement is severely limited. We had first started this because he wanted to get to experience the same kind of sensory-overwhelming pleasure he gives me when he tops. And he could tell he wasn't getting that.

Which is why a few days ago, after telling me to top, he stopped me part way through. He said he wanted more. He wanted to try one of my dildos. He wanted to know what a real dick felt like. Submissive that I am, I obediently obliged. I got one of my more reasonably-sized toys, around 6"-6 1/2" in length, a bit on the thick size. I'll confess, I was both excited and anxious to see how he'd react to it.

The moment I started sliding it in, his eyes immediately rolled to the back of his head. He needed me to stop and pull it out after just a bit. He was struggling with it exactly like anyone would on their first time ever taking a dick. He called it overwhelming, and said he felt so full with it in. But he warmed up to it, and soon he was telling me to fuck him harder and harder with it. It made him feel incredible, and he came his brains out on it.

But he wasn't done. When he cums good, Daddy usually wants to cum twice. So he told me to get my dick back in him. I did, to basically no reaction. I tried fucking him harder and harder, and while he wasn't laying there like a dead fish, the reactions were extremely muted. Nothing at all like on the dildo. Hell, I could get bigger reactions from him by stroking his thighs than by thrusting my dick.

I asked for his honest feelings. He's not a good liar, but still, I didn't want him to play it up for the sake of bullying me, nor play it down to spare my feelings. He thought about it calmly (while I still pounded away at him), and said it felt like I wasn't in yet. Or at least not all the way in. (I assured him I was.) He also added it didn't feel like I was stretching him anymore, and that he wasn't getting enough stimulation, even where my dick could reach.

"What's the summary of your review?" I asked. "Like if you were reviewing this online. Bottom of the review, last section summary."

He thought for a short while. "... Inadequate."

"That's it?"

"Yeah, sorry, I can't think of anything else to describe it. Like, maybe it could get the job done next time, when I'm not stretched out, if we really try? It does feel a little good. But it's not enough." He'd just be thinking about how he wants more. All in all, a reasonably-sized dildo did way, way more for him by itself than my tiny dick ever does even with the rest of my body. And Daddy ultimately didn't cum a second time until long after I was out of him.

So there it is. I got to watch my partner's opinion on dick size evolve up close. My confidence in my usefulness as a top was built up for a year, only to be torn down by the reality that my dick is hopelessly inadequate. Even with anal. Even with someone inexperienced. And while Daddy might have me try again in the future, it's been made clear to me that it's not me who'll actually get him off. That'll be a dildo, or possibly even another man. A real man. A feminized sissy faggot with a tiny dick like myself just isn't gonna get the job done.